Haven Prism

this is my first foray into GDScript, so I was unaware of how... testy the compiler is.
there is no automatic inlining, and things like variable allocations happen every loop iteration instead of being lifted to the parent scope implicitly, among a dozen other things. I didn't think the overhead of a function call would be that expensive, but WOW.
back to the drawing board.

2026-09-29 18:24:05 UTC

slowly coming to terms with the fact that GDScript is not suitable for writing an interpreter without a bunch of tricks.
did not expect this.

2026-09-12 00:17:10 UTC

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cc: @npub1m94…6caa @npub1z8r…mrq6
this entire debut album absolutely blew me away, might be up your alley :)
https://youtu.be/ND5dk1JnMhE

2026-09-12 00:13:53 UTC

poursuis-moi, au-delà d’hier
chase me beyond yesterday
https://youtu.be/FO8uIelNYQM
#artcore #jazz #music

2026-08-24 13:12:40 UTC

lately it's felt like.. my mind is unlocked
not in the way of like, unlocking your potential, or some kind of mountain to summit so you say that you can do it..
but it's felt.. free. weightless. untethered. my strength is returning, both mentally and physically, and I'm kind of in awe of how much I just. love. living life?
I've struggled with severe depression ever since I was 13, and it's just been getting worse over the years. i always thought it would never leave me, just persisting through it.
these past few weeks, I've felt the healthiest I have ever felt in my entire life. I feel safe, supported, loved, and full of life. and it occurred to me: this is how people normally.. feel? it's almost a shock.
I've always had the rug pulled out from under me, in some way or fashion. and, y'know I still have bad days. but they don't floor me like they used to. it also doesn't feel like mania. it feels.. deeper. like a meaningful, warm hug.
starting over at 30 is heartbreakingly difficult. but it would've been more difficult, impossible, without the help I've received from everyone I've befriended and developed deep bonds with. you know who you are. 💜
I guess I didn't have a point for this post, other than.. just. happy to feel good. happy to see the good in the world, happy to talk and be and breathe. feels like I am finally, for real this time, moving forward.

2026-08-13 14:00:04 UTC

Still away from this keyboard.
Feeling good. So good it feels suspicious.
I'll be back in the fall. The summer is just too exciting.

2026-08-05 01:42:32 UTC

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You are missed! Hope the wilds treat your body and mind well. ^^

2026-07-21 23:11:04 UTC

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I refract, therefore I prism.

2026-06-11 20:39:07 UTC

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Always happy to give it another go. :)

2026-04-17 16:45:39 UTC

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This actually is a pretty critical result in models of computation: indirection is one of the most powerful operators you could add to any counter machine (which is what multiset rewriting's sequential cousin is)!
Once you add indirection, you become able to access arbitrary amounts of memory. Instead of encoding data within the counters like stacks of bits, you instead just reach for another counter that you assume exists. Indirection does require you to have an infinite number of counters, or at least as many as your number type can handle.
If you try to reach for a counter that doesn't exist, you can just fail the rule match. Benefits of guarded computation. :)

2026-04-06 18:30:05 UTC

God, we're finally glad we have our own place..

2026-03-07 17:16:01 UTC

"The most wildly successful project I’ve ever released is no longer mine. In all my years of building things and sharing them online, I have never felt so violated."
https://beyondloom.com/blog/onwigglypaint.html

2026-02-27 03:50:39 UTC

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"This whole journal is a temporal pincer."

2026-02-27 02:52:47 UTC

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I'm quite surprised to hear this! You have lovely handwriting! I have samples of it in my notebook and it's wonderful. :)

2026-02-19 00:02:33 UTC

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the impulse is clear.
make your own as a very tiny uxn window

2026-02-16 21:06:53 UTC

software engineering was started by women
software engineering will end with women

2026-01-31 23:07:11 UTC

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the trap has been set

2026-01-22 17:54:52 UTC

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The M5Stack Cardputer would be a cool potential target!

2026-01-22 09:34:07 UTC

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For what it's worth, the SNES was only able to manage about 24 polygons per frame via the CPU, so these routines are beating that! :)
It'd be hilarious to see an equivalent of the Super FX chip in Uxn, either as an external device or as a series of routines.

2026-01-22 04:06:36 UTC

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ISN'T IT?! :D
The community has pushed this to its LIMIT.

2026-01-22 04:04:43 UTC

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Logical next step. The Arduboy has a REALLY cool example of this.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gwYq4X4JZMQ

2026-01-01 20:08:16 UTC

Okay.
Let's get started.
https://youtu.be/1aTvy3iSXpI

2026-01-01 06:20:45 UTC

I've had a few rounds at doing my "2025 wrapped". I think I'll delay publishing it.. but this year deserves documenting. Actually, now that I think of it, everything from 2023-2025 deserves documenting.
Over the last few years, I lost my soul and found it again, with the help of some of the best friends I could have ever hoped to meet. There are moments when I trace my steps, how I ended up here, and I'm in sheer awe.
Merveilles took me in with open arms when I thought I belonged absolutely nowhere. @npub1z8r…mrq6 showed me that I still had a fragment of life left in me and showed me that this maelstrom was worth surviving.
Since then, I have seen such sights. Sights I have never seen, warmth I cannot process, and love that is unconditional. I have not paid them proper tribute, and it's hard for me to adjust. I'm still a bit wobbly. Please use this message as an IOU: I cherish our friendship dearly, I'm just suffering from whiplash!
To everyone that's helped me this year, and encouraged me to keep going, thank you. I literally owe you my life, many times over. I will not let you down, and I will keep pushing forward. You have this girl's word.
To all my friends, I know many of you have gone through turmoil and are still going through it. Please know that I love each of you and want to see you succeed and punch back against the things that oppress you. This dimly lit bubble will not keep you as a prisoner. If I can help, I'll try. You are worth it.
May the last moments of this year be an exhale, and let the next breath be the freshest, cleanest, most crisp air possible. May the light of tomorrow greet you and let you know that, while you still breathe, you are not alone.
💜 :simplex:

2025-12-31 00:43:45 UTC

new mitch murder
https://youtu.be/6f6USvbz2IY

2025-12-25 17:28:53 UTC

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What a tome! :D
There''s a catlangs joke about word definitions and a dictionary in here somewhere..

2025-12-17 18:45:42 UTC

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It's insane because I think this is supposed to CONTINUE through the end of the month... last night felt like the earth was going to blow away. Cannot imagine what it felt like on the water.

2025-12-17 18:35:04 UTC

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Yep. Lost power several dozen times, tons of trees down. Riding past the flood valleys looks like the ocean came to us.

2025-12-17 18:27:10 UTC

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Glad to see you safe and online. Hope nothing was damaged..

2025-12-16 17:51:22 UTC

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I once knew a person that was obsessed with prestige culture (FAANG, etc.)
The conversation turned to cooking, and he took massive offense to anything anybody brought up. "Why are you.. doing that?"
The guy apparently cooked nothing but lean ground beef 24/7 and ate it, apart from takeout. Could not understand, at all, why people would cook anything more for themselves. This was cheap and the only thing he knew how to make.
In the same breath, he boasted about net worth, and how he essentially stripped himself bare (socially and personally) and pursued a FAANG job. Not because he needed the money, but because he was obsessed with prestige culture and the amount of money you could earn and hoard.
Every time I see comments like this I think of him. These people are not well, and they are being surrounded by a system of people pushing them further.

2025-12-14 19:43:46 UTC

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Maybe. I think I've just run out of things I can think about.

2025-12-14 19:23:25 UTC

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I feel like this is compounded by seeing other people work. It somehow demotivates me, even though I can celebrate their work. They found joy in it. Do I find joy in mine?
Life has punched me in the gut several times in the past three weeks. Some serious shit is about to hit our household, same as ever.. inspiration and joy in work is hard to find when you have this background "hum" of stress, tension and disorganization.
If your mind never fully relaxes, what does joy look like? What does inspiration look like? Is it coupled to the velocity of your life? Will you do things because the stress keeps you moving?
What happens in the quiet moments, when you have time? I have time right now. Some of it, anyway. Why am I not inspired? Why can't I recall what gives me joy, or makes me enthused to create? What is missing?
In moments like these, I feel as unskilled as I have ever been. I feel like my hands and head have lost their memory, because the frantic keyboard mashing was tied to a desire. Desire melds with dreams, and dreams are why we live.
I haven't slept well lately, in every sense.

2025-12-14 19:13:56 UTC

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Exhale.

2025-12-14 19:13:29 UTC

I need a palate cleanser for computing. Everything seems the same to me and I don't feel like I can do any of it. Memory issues compound that.

2025-12-09 03:58:37 UTC

I've been away for a few days after receiving some very heavy medical news. It's been hell. Fell off the bandwagon for December Adventure. Not much time to think.
Seems as if every time I get up, some punch knocks me back down. It's.. unnatural, how blessed and cursed I am.
I'm blessed by having the best friends and the leeway to work on what I feel is important, yet I'm cursed by misfortune impacting the people that I love and cherish.
I can't protect everyone. But I want to. But I can't.
I refuse to yield. But it is hard to get back up and pretend there's no bruise.

2025-11-30 19:08:49 UTC

It's mah birfday.
I miss the water.
I will go see it today.
I am excited.

2025-11-27 22:08:00 UTC

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WHAT

2025-11-17 18:49:10 UTC

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"I spent the day munching on some incredibly fresh algae courtesy of this little corner of our universe.
#foodbogging"

2025-11-17 17:57:40 UTC

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"the moss has RSS support"

2025-11-17 17:41:49 UTC

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bogposting.
gotta update my bog
livebogging

2025-10-14 18:46:45 UTC

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Welcome back to the fray! I hear your set was fantastic. :)

2025-09-27 19:19:35 UTC

Hello, Nouveau. :simplex:
Today was the premier of a talk I gave about Nova at LIVE 2025!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dltTns5-8eA
There's a live Q&A happening on October 4th, check out the LIVE website for more information! https://liveprog.org
#nova #live2025 #livecoding

2025-09-17 15:35:20 UTC

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Winds blew smoke and ash from inland out to sea, and it was so intense it kicked up ash from the Mount St. Helens eruption!

2025-08-21 20:15:19 UTC

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Zero, one, infinity.
Zero stacks get you.. nothing, no way of passing data around or doing anything.
One stack gets you a push-down automaton, not too interesting on its own.
Two stacks gets you a Turning Machine tape, a 2-stack PDA, or a Forth.
Infinite stacks gets you something truly magical.