Maybe I lied to myself. About what I love. About what I want. About how to help others.
Maybe my help is worthless.
Maybe I traded a mask for another.
It just feels like it would be easier to not exist. A very selfish thought. One I will never act on. But one that will unfortunately always have a spot in the back of my mind
Xantw0 ⊗⊘
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2026-08-26 00:00:15 UTC
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