:neuro: Pixy's Journey :nonbinary_heart: on Nostr: :kirby_prideheart: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle: I hope ...

Ello sweet and lovely Friendos

I hope you're all doing well! I'm sorry that I've only been sharing my journals here. And that I've not been able to keep up... As I still need to write the one for yesterday 🫣

My app tells me there are 40 notifications, but I don't think I've ever seen it say anything higher, so I have no idea how far behind I really am. Thank you to all that are in my notifications list, and I will try to check them out. I just have no idea how long it will take me.

For the last few weeks I've been in a survival mode. Just trying to get through the days. Hoping to get some relief when I was able to sleep. I know I'm not feeling well. I know I am lacking in many things. Some things happened that triggered me, causing nightmares, flashbacks, and a feeling of total exhaustion (and sometimes an overwhelming sadness).

I need to do better for Koa. I need to do better for myself... I have tried to ask for help at times which is rather hard for me. So I am glad that I've been able to actually ask (and receive). The coach is trying to get me some help for my home, to help me keeping it clean. I struggle so much, and feel so ashamed. 😢 And as protective as I am of my things, I know that I'm not able to do it by myself anymore. 😔 But it takes time to file a request. Then, if approved, they need to calculate the hours I'm eligible for. And then they need to find someone that will match with me... 🍀

I'll try to write my journal Toot in a bit. In a few hours, a sweet friend is coming over. She will take Koa for a good walk, and then we'll try to build Koa's new crate. 🤞🏻 Fingers crossed that we will be successful in the end! and that it will fit in the space of the old one 🫣

Well, let's see if I can write that Toot in a bit. I'll have to do a few chores as well. I want to join our friend and Koa but... I may need to relax a bit on bed when they're out (and maybe *finally* check on some of your messages ). I really want to join them, but my head feels like I've tried to headbutt Koa during playtime

Sorry again for not interacting with your toots. I really hope to start feeling better soon... I want to get back to less pain, more usage of my right hand, and better sleep. I miss chatting with all of you...

🫂 🩵 💜 🩷 🐾

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