"All of those controls on me are about you, not me" -- yeah.
Issues with her mom, with her sister, with bullshit in junior high, with her body issues, with her resentment of the significant changes in our lives.
Pushback if I'm "too much like her", but also pushback if I'm not ENOUGH like her because apparently there's this tiny zone of comfort I can't seem to find.
This impossible to walk line, which is further complicated because somehow I'm triggering some of her self-image shit by existing -- I don't even know how to fucking process my own wife being jealous of how I look occasionally (stuff that short, very busty girls can't pull off, but us tall girls with no tits can), or this weird gatekeeping of femininity that I still don't understand.
She accused me of treating her like a "big sister" when I was treating her like I treat any woman I'm friends with -- while she treats me like a particular slow, annoying, younger sibling.
Emily 🏳️⚧️ (Recovery Era)
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