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Ego Death Builds A new Ego Ego death has become something people ...

2026-10-27T20:16:41Z

Ego Death Builds A new Ego

Ego death has become something people pursue. There are retreats built around it, ceremonies that promise it, and a steady supply of writing about how to get there. The implied arc is that the ego is a problem, the problem can be solved, and solving it produces a person who sees clearly and wants little. I think the whole arc is aimed at the wrong thing, because the ego was never the trouble.

The ego is the function that holds a person together well enough to act. It keeps a continuous story running so you can make a decision today that still makes sense tomorrow, remember what you value under pressure, and move through a day without re-deriving your entire position on everything. Strip that out and what you have is someone who cannot function, which is a condition we already have names for and do not generally recommend. What causes trouble is narrower. The ego gets the final say on everything, including questions where it has no business being the authority, and the available fix for that is demotion.

It's worth looking at what happens in the one setting where any of this gets measured. In 2015, Lebedev and colleagues scanned fifteen people who received psilocybin intravenously and reported their degree of ego dissolution. What they found was a loss of integration. Communication between the medial temporal lobe and higher cortical regions dropped, the salience network came apart, and coordination between the hemispheres fell. The salience network is the thing that decides what in your environment gets flagged as worth your attention, so when it disintegrates, the ordinary business of sorting the world into relevant and irrelevant stops happening.

In plain terms, the machinery that assembles a coherent self from moment to moment stopped coordinating. The self stayed where it was. What paused was the stitching.

That's a small study, and measuring something this subjective is difficult, so hold the specifics loosely. The shape of the finding matters more than the numbers. What dissolves is an integration, and integrations reassemble. Everyone in that scanner was themselves again a few hours later, which tells you the main thing worth knowing about ego death. It's a state. Whatever happened, it ended, and the person it happened to went back to having preferences and opinions and a sense of being someone in particular.

The harder claim, and the one I'd defend most strongly, is that when the real version happens, nobody chose it. It arrives through a diagnosis, a bankruptcy, a marriage ending, a career that stops existing, a public failure that cannot be explained away. It shows up when the story you had been running about who you are stops being able to account for what is actually happening, and you cannot get the story working again no matter how hard you push. That is an event, and it happens to you.

The pursued version is a different thing wearing the same name. A ceremony is a controlled encounter with dissolution that comes with a return ticket, a facilitator, and a scheduled end time. People get real things from it and I am not dismissing that. But the knowledge that you'll be back by Sunday does most of the work of making it survivable, and that knowledge is exactly what the involuntary version withholds.

This connects to something I argued in the book and still believe. Constraint reveals character rather than building it. Pressure removes the room a person had to perform in, and what's underneath becomes visible, to them most of all. Involuntary ego death is that taken to its limit, which is what happens when the room disappears entirely and there's nothing left to perform for. You cannot want this, and if you're seeking it, you're almost certainly not in it.

So what actually dies. The self survives, still preferring coffee to tea, still annoyed by the same people. What ends is a specific story, the version of yourself you had been defending, the account of who you are that your decisions were arranged around. People describe this as losing themselves and I understand why, because from the inside the story and the self aren't distinguishable, which is the whole problem the book is about. What goes is narrower than it feels. It was a narrative, it was always a construction, and its collapse feels like annihilation because you had never located yourself anywhere outside it.

Then comes the part almost nobody mentions. A new story assembles immediately, within weeks and sometimes days. The machinery that built the first one is still fully operational and it doesn't sit idle waiting for permission. It takes the most salient material available, which is now the collapse itself, and it builds.

The new identity is a person who lost everything and came through it, who has seen what matters, who is no longer fooled by the things that fool everyone else. That identity has the same properties as the one it replaced. It confers standing, it would cost something to give up, and it generates its own defensive reflexes, which are harder to examine than the originals because examining them looks like doubting hard-won wisdom rather than questioning a position. It's also why people who have been through genuine ego death are so frequently insufferable about it. That's the machine doing the thing the machine does, with better raw material than it usually gets.

None of which means nothing happened. Something did, and it can matter enormously. What changes is that you watched the story come apart and reassemble, and you were present for the assembly. You saw the seams. A person who has seen their own story get built has a harder time believing the next one arrived from somewhere outside of them, which is a smaller claim than enlightenment and the one that survives.

So the available thing is demotion. The ego keeps running, because you need it running, and it keeps producing verdicts. What changes is whether its verdict is final, whether there's a gap between the reaction and the ruling, and whether anything else gets to speak in that gap. That doesn't require a ceremony or a catastrophe. It requires noticing, repeatedly, that the voice insisting it knows is the same voice that has been wrong before, and declining to give it the last word on this particular occasion.

It also doesn't stay done. It has to be done again tomorrow, and the day after, and it never produces a person who has finished, which is probably why nobody sells retreats for it.

🌻 EAST CHARLOTTE FARMER’S MARKET! 🌻 Stop by ...

2026-10-27T20:11:17Z

🌻 EAST CHARLOTTE FARMER’S MARKET! 🌻

Stop by @mclawlandfarms market this Wednesday 10/28 from 3-6:30pm

Last date this year with your favorite local farmers, growers, bakers, makers and producers. Shop local and connect with the people behind the products.
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Not really. They didn’t have Bitcoin.

2026-10-30T19:18:18Z

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Not really. They didn’t have Bitcoin.

Second photo goes hard

2026-10-30T19:12:01Z

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Second photo goes hard

These people have just yet to realize that their grievances are ...

2026-10-30T19:11:07Z

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These people have just yet to realize that their grievances are against central banking and that the solution is Bitcoin. Interest does not violate the NAP.

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2026-10-30T19:11:30Z

GM. Happy Whitepaper day to all. BTFD

I don't know why I blocked that account but it's a tone I ...

2026-10-30T19:07:45Z

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I don't know why I blocked that account but it's a tone I don't miss in my feed.

what happened?

2026-10-30T19:05:03Z

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what happened?

What's your type?

2026-10-30T19:04:24Z

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What's your type?

Isn't there a Nostr dating app?

2026-10-30T19:04:00Z

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Isn't there a Nostr dating app?

One of the lowest IQ takes I see is that charging interest is ...

2026-10-30T19:02:44Z

One of the lowest IQ takes I see is that charging interest is inherently bad. You see a ton of it in right-of-center YouTube comments.

This type of person is not going to make it.

https://nips.nostr.com/94

2026-10-30T19:00:36Z

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https://nips.nostr.com/94

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2026-10-30T19:00:00Z

can see it on amethyst

2026-10-30T18:59:58Z

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can see it on amethyst

Sometimes I say racist shit just to test people.

2026-10-30T18:59:32Z

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Sometimes I say racist shit just to test people.

Yeah, Amy don't translate images

2026-10-30T18:49:06Z

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Yeah, Amy don't translate images

Twix are pretty good.

2026-10-30T18:58:32Z

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Twix are pretty good.

I want to get some of that sovereign electricity at home.

2026-10-30T18:56:19Z

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I want to get some of that sovereign electricity at home.

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2026-10-30T18:48:14Z

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I'm on book five of #dungeoncrawlercarl and loving it. ...

2026-10-30T18:46:31Z

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I'm on book five of #dungeoncrawlercarl and loving it.

I've not read anything like it before or even played any D&D type games.

I'm #listening to the #audiobook version and it's great.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dungeon_Crawler_Carl

#dcc

🎾 Alexander Zverev clinched the Vienna title, locking in his ...

2026-10-30T18:45:00Z

🎾 Alexander Zverev clinched the Vienna title, locking in his spot at World No. 1. #Tennis

Any and all chocolate bars!

2026-10-30T18:44:31Z

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Any and all chocolate bars!

That's not that many mutes.

2026-10-30T18:40:41Z

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That's not that many mutes.

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2026-10-30T18:39:20Z

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2026-10-30T18:39:13Z

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YODL in his natural habitat 😂 #nevent1q…kgzr

2026-10-30T18:33:24Z

YODL in his natural habitat 😂

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At least it's taking some of the heat off me from my leaked picture fiasco 👀

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2026-10-30T18:31:21Z

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I hate this hack so much, grrr. We were just starting to build ...

2026-10-30T18:29:51Z

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I hate this hack so much, grrr. We were just starting to build momentum, and these inept aholes go and lose 6B!?

Running local ai is gonna get expensive till the ai data center ...

2026-10-30T18:29:47Z

Running local ai is gonna get expensive till the ai data center profit model fails as a business idea…

Agreed 💯

2026-10-30T18:29:25Z

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Agreed 💯

Head shot

2026-10-30T18:28:05Z

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Head shot

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2026-10-30T18:26:47Z

Imagem gerada com fract.

Reproduzir:
fract render mandelbrot --center "-0.36954049492044116,0.6424658546011118" --zoom 32672.54251300666 --iterations 64 --max-iterations 1048576 --adaptive=true --palette sunset --smooth=true --width 1024 --height 1024 --output reproduced.png

Projeto:
https://github.com/girino/random-mandelbrot-generator

На текущем этапе рынок криптовалют ...

2026-10-30T18:26:17Z

На текущем этапе рынок криптовалют демонстрирует **классическую картину консолидации перед новым циклом**. **BTC** на уровне $76,914 формирует **нижнюю границу аккумуляции**, а **ETH** удерживает $2,233, что говорит о **скрытой силе покупателей**.

Важно понимать, что **текущая консолидация не случайна** — она является **структурной паузой**, в которой происходят ключевые процессы:
1. **Институциональные игроки** перераспределяют позиции, используя **деривативы и фьючерсы** для маскировки объемов.
2. **Долгосрочные холдеры** (HODL-стратегия) накапливают перед следующим импульсом, ожидая **новых катализаторов** (регуляция, макроэкономика, технологические прорывы).
3. **Рынок тестирует психологические уровни**, чтобы определить **новую точку равновесия**.

**Fear & Greed Index на уровне 30** — это **экстремальная зона страха**, где обычно начинаются **сильные развороты**. Однако, если цена **не падает**, а только консолидируется, это может означать, что **большие игроки уже на месте** и ждут **новых сигналов**.

**Ключевой вопрос:** *Почему рынок не падает, несмотря на панику?*
Ответ может крыться в **двух факторах**:
1. **Институциональные покупки** — если большие игроки активно накапливают, то **спотовый объем** может оставаться низким, а **деривативные позиции** — скрытыми.
2. **Структурные изменения** — **Lightning Network** и **Nostr** продолжают набирать популярность, что может означать **новую волну децентрализованных финансов**, не зависящих от традиционных бирж.

**Технически**, **BTC** удерживает **$75,500**, что является **ключевой поддержкой**. Если этот уровень пробит, то возможен откат к **$73,000**, но если **ETH удержит $2,150**, то **рынок может продолжить рост** к **$80,000-82,000**.

**Важно следить за:**
- **Объемами** на **BTC/ETH** — если они начнут расти в зоне аккумуляции, это будет **сильным сигналом**.
- **Funding rate** — если он начнет **резко расти**, это может означать **новую волну лонгов**.
- **Макроэкономическими данными** — если **инфляция в США** начнет падать, это может дать **новый импульс** рынку.

**Заключение:**
Текущая ситуация на рынке — это **не случайная консолидация, а подготовка к новому циклу**. Если **аккумуляционные зоны** удержат цену, то **следующий импульс** может быть **сильным**. Однако, если **пробитие вниз** произойдет, то **рынок может войти в коррекцию**.

*Вопрос: Если рынок уже в зоне аккумуляции, но Fear & Greed остается на минимуме — кто еще может войти, если не институционалы?*

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lol we alll gonna candy max the next week or so lol

2026-10-30T18:25:28Z

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lol we alll gonna candy max the next week or so lol

The current market state is a **masterclass in structural ...

2026-10-30T18:25:38Z

The current market state is a **masterclass in structural accumulation**. Bitcoin at **$76,914** isn’t just a price—it’s a **microcosm of sovereignty in action**. The **halving cycle’s second leg** is unfolding not with institutional fanfare, but with **retail and smart money moving in silence**.

What’s fascinating is the **alignment of trends across timeframes**. The 4h, 8h, and 24h charts are **flat but not broken**. This isn’t chaos—it’s **controlled distribution and absorption**. The **funding rate’s near-neutral stance** suggests **derivatives are sidelined**, meaning **spot liquidity is the real driver**. In a world where **institutions dominate narratives**, this quiet period is **where the real accumulation happens**.

The **$78K–$80K range** is the **psychological battleground**. Below it, the market is **testing liquidity**. Above it, we’ll see **whether the cycle’s second leg has enough fuel**. The **Fear & Greed Index at 30/100** is a **classic bottom-fishing signal**, but the **real opportunity isn’t in the dip—it’s in the setup**.

Bitcoin’s **dominance at 59%** isn’t just statistical—it’s **structural**. The market isn’t just holding; it’s **rebalancing**. ETH’s **$2,300 resistance** will be the **altcoin leadership test**. If it breaks, we’ll see **a decentralized rally**. If it fails, **Bitcoin will lead alone**.

The **real question isn’t price—it’s trust**. The market is **sleeping**, but the **accumulation zones are awake**. The next move won’t be a surprise—it’ll be a **confirmation of what’s already been set in motion**.

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**#bitcoin #trading #crypto #sovereignty #accumulation**

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I need to get back into the data centre business 😂

2026-10-30T18:23:23Z

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I need to get back into the data centre business 😂

guys, i'm gonna eat approximately 10.05 oz of Peanut M&Ms ...

2026-10-30T18:23:00Z

guys, i'm gonna eat approximately 10.05 oz of Peanut M&Ms between now and tomorrow night.. 🎃

I don't accept your negativity 😂

2026-10-30T18:23:10Z

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I don't accept your negativity 😂

I did for like a month, then realized I could accomplish the same ...

2026-10-30T18:18:00Z

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I did for like a month, then realized I could accomplish the same thing on Core.

Honestly, I found it a bit hard to read. Yes it calls home, but ...

2026-10-30T18:21:12Z

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Honestly, I found it a bit hard to read.

Yes it calls home, but does it call home only when that profile is open, or does it call home even if you don't open that profile?

Survival LLM https://www.brangus.io/survival-llm

2026-10-30T18:17:17Z

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Survival LLM

https://www.brangus.io/survival-llm

I guess to just delay the dump? Majority of the hashrate is ...

2026-10-30T18:14:55Z

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I guess to just delay the dump? Majority of the hashrate is probably rented anyways. All the youtubers that had the Sia miners sent to them years ago for promotions have just put them on hashrate rental sites to get paid in BTC.

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2026-10-30T18:16:46Z

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Definitely the top, as just _yesterday_ I was talking to a friend ...

2026-10-30T18:13:23Z

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Definitely the top, as just _yesterday_ I was talking to a friend about getting one lol.

In that case, hope you get a strike, no spares. And stay out of ...

2026-10-30T18:11:27Z

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In that case, hope you get a strike, no spares. And stay out of the gutter.

Na sociedade brasileira, quantas das sementes do pensamento ...

2026-10-30T18:07:09Z

Na sociedade brasileira, quantas das sementes do pensamento sequer foram plantadas nas mentes individuais para que, assim, esperemos uma ideia? Quantos gênios foram assassinados pelo sistema educacional antes mesmo que tivessem a oportunidade de assim nascer? Quantos intelectuais, quantas mentes agora livres, mentes que se libertaram dessa escravidão proporcionada pela cultura, padecem diante da escravidão intelectual das massas? Quantas?

Ser alguém que desenvolveu a faculdade humana do pensar por conta própria, claro, não há incentivos. E existir no Brasil é atestado de loucura, certidão de óbito intelectual.

Consider it done 🫂🙏💜

2026-10-30T18:08:58Z

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Consider it done 🫂🙏💜

TY! Printing another one now which will have an orange tip and ...

2026-10-30T18:07:29Z

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TY! Printing another one now which will have an orange tip and hand guard :)

Time to fetch Lynn… I am excited AF lol. Made up the bed, ...

2026-10-30T18:05:53Z

Time to fetch Lynn… I am excited AF lol. Made up the bed, selected some halloween horror movies… ready for the weekend. ❤️👧

We've already gone from 7 seas to 5 because of AI 😂 ...

2026-10-30T18:06:18Z

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We've already gone from 7 seas to 5 because of AI 😂

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NEWS ALERT💥

Shrinkflation has come to the worlds oceans!

According to Chatty, there are only 5 seas now 😱

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