Nostr notes by Gwen Fawn :v_trans: :v_spo:

Time for me to promote "Egg cracker: the anime" yet ...

2025-07-18T09:45:08Z

In reply to nevent1q…3v8e
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Time for me to promote "Egg cracker: the anime" yet again! :akko_fistup: Watch Onimai if you haven't yet.

Something similar, yes, but I think not exactly the same. For me, ...

2024-10-21T09:55:44Z

In reply to nevent1q…wta3
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Something similar, yes, but I think not exactly the same.
For me, it's not about the reception, rather that if what I'm writing is really true. Like do I actually feel that way, or am I just making it up to "fit in", I guess?
It seems like my dysphoria has impostor syndrome. :blobcatnotlikethis: :neocat_laugh_sweat:

Ever since I've started posting here, I had an odd feeling ...

2024-10-20T17:59:22Z

Ever since I've started posting here, I had an odd feeling nagging me from the back of my mind. :neocat_confused: One that questions if I'm being honest, if what I'm writing about really applies to me (and here comes the best part), because I "just write whatever happens to come to mind with little deliberation and pondering". :akko_shrug:

Is it a neurodivergent thing, or is it dysphoria speaking? :neocat_think: Why does it feel alien to just write something without ruminating on it for hours? Yes, I hadn't spent an inordinate amount of time figuring out every small detail about me being trans, that doesn't mean that I'm not sincere, thank you brain.
Is it unmasking? Or finally accepting myself?

Whatever it is, it feels liberating. :neocat_floof_happy:

The thing is, for everything else, I'm pretty sure I could ...

2024-09-23T15:21:43Z

In reply to nevent1q…qmm5
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The thing is, for everything else, I'm pretty sure I could find lots of kind and actually helpful psychologists, as there are many (and I'm friends with at least one), but when it comes to such "modern" things like lgbt people existing, this country is still in the 60s. And also the psychologist needs to have the "clinical" title and be on some central list, and psychiatrists are mostly from older generations.

I feel you. :akko_sad: Here it's similar, but in a way so ...

2024-09-23T14:51:56Z

In reply to nevent1q…tpty
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I feel you. :akko_sad: Here it's similar, but in a way so much worse. In theory, you just need a diagnosis from a psychiatrist and another from a clinical psychologist, then a urological or gynecological visit, and then an endocrinologist can write the prescription after some blood tests. Doesn't sound that bad. :akko_shrug:
In practice, there's probably 2 psychiatrists and like 4 psychologists that are recommended for this, everyone else either haven't done this for enough people yet to earn a rec, or is straight up gatekeeping people. And this is in private care, in public there's only one psychiatrist with a one year waiting list. (There's probably 1-2 people for both not in the capital, too, but still.)
I tried a psychiatrist without a rec in July who seemed (maybe even advertised as) lgbt-friendly tell me that "it's just depression, here's some SARI, go on walks, and don't worry, I can't see any femininity in you at all, bye". :akko_cry: Best ~100€ ever spent...