Nostr notes by bajax

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2026-10-29T13:17:53Z

hmm how do I manipulate json objects in plain c

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2026-10-28T00:22:02Z

some of these people just don't need to be

I think polar sardines are my favorite. lightly smoked in olive ...

2026-10-27T23:53:46Z

I think polar sardines are my favorite.

lightly smoked in olive oil. very good.

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2026-10-27T23:23:48Z

watching campy movies with some queers

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2026-10-27T12:35:41Z

someone got in my sink and licked all my dishes "clean"

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2026-10-27T12:23:20Z

tired of being nervous and self conscious like perpetually

ok no it wasn't merc's retarded poll, whatever it is just ...

2026-10-27T04:08:10Z

ok no it wasn't merc's retarded poll, whatever it is just scrolled down my TL while I was trying to figure out what caused it. it's one page down lol, but I can't scroll or my FE crashes. It doesn't even get into the debugger, profiling it says it's doing a ton of allocations and gc's.

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2026-10-27T04:01:21Z

fucking new FE hangs on polls

hitting me with a rolled up newspaper I will fucking bite your ...

2026-10-26T14:29:47Z

hitting me with a rolled up newspaper I will fucking bite your face

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2026-10-25T20:15:05Z

...i know you don't think it's the end...

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2026-10-25T02:43:49Z

no one told me :cry_hq:

hades character designs are seriously just like you hit randomize ...

2026-10-24T12:41:38Z

hades character designs are seriously just like you hit randomize in mii maker then drew them as humans

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2026-10-24T10:58:41Z

live from the painchamber

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2026-10-24T10:52:44Z

there are no good slurs that start with y

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2026-10-24T10:46:20Z

test am i federating?

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2026-10-23T13:57:07Z

if I don't move she can't see me

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2026-10-22T12:40:02Z

I actually think sardines taste better than mackerel

the kind of person who's extremely annoying but you can't ...

2026-10-21T18:13:07Z

the kind of person who's extremely annoying but you can't really hate them because they haven't really done anything all that bad so you just kinda groan and bear it but you'd be a lot happier if they went away and you never heard from them again (they're me)

take a couple drags on this thc vape during working hours I said ...

2026-10-21T16:06:09Z

take a couple drags on this thc vape during working hours I said

nothing can go wrong I said

and so far it hasn't

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2026-10-21T15:55:36Z

I think I'll make some fancy ramen for lunch

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2026-10-21T03:29:11Z

extremely sad all day today. I'll be ok shortly.

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2026-10-20T21:47:45Z

fairly certain that isn't noided

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2026-10-20T07:10:32Z

currently dying

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2026-10-19T22:15:36Z

it's bleak

jsut had a horrible thought I could go and get some pandar ...

2026-10-19T22:12:05Z

jsut had a horrible thought

I could go and get some pandar express

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2026-10-19T20:51:53Z

aaaaaughhhhhhhhhh

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2026-10-19T20:45:57Z

what the fuck is even left to try

people texting me trying to buy my house on behalf of fucking ...

2026-10-19T20:25:59Z

people texting me trying to buy my house on behalf of fucking private equity

had to leave work to wfh because I was gonna yell at my boss if ...

2026-10-19T19:07:13Z

had to leave work to wfh

because I was gonna yell at my boss if he kept coming in to discuss stuff

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2026-10-19T18:56:49Z

isolation getting to me now

was hurting horribly. ajax was insisting on getting in my face. I ...

2026-10-19T13:41:29Z

was hurting horribly. ajax was insisting on getting in my face. I almost got short with him but finally I was like "OK You win!" and he forced me to recline while he curled up on my chest.

and I'll be damned but my head stopped hurting. stayed like that for 15 minutes

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2026-10-18T17:02:51Z

@Netraven been living by this all my life

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2026-10-17T13:10:38Z

fuck you amazon I am not signing up for prime

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2026-10-17T06:30:27Z

I'm out of alcohol

lol claude blocked me from making a free account because my ...

2026-10-17T00:32:29Z

lol claude blocked me from making a free account because my google account didn't link to my real name and I signed up from my proxy

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2026-10-16T22:03:37Z

wish I had "people"

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2026-10-16T10:49:46Z

I wish I existed

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2026-10-16T09:20:42Z

this could be the worst pain I've ever felt

I don't feel like I can be forgiven. for anything ever.

2026-10-14T23:55:25Z

I don't feel like I can be forgiven.

for anything ever.

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2026-10-14T01:06:48Z

i hate myself so much

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2026-10-14T00:48:08Z

they're turning me into sweet and sour chicken tomorrow

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2026-10-14T00:02:51Z

I need something to take my mind off of things

I feel good. (alcohol helps)

2026-10-13T22:24:51Z

I feel good.

(alcohol helps)

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2026-10-13T22:16:30Z

louis rossmann norwooding before our eyes

I'm afraid I'm probably going to get in an argument with ...

2026-10-13T12:50:14Z

I'm afraid I'm probably going to get in an argument with my boss today. he will not let up trying to get me to say that his code is good and it is not.

none of this was worth it I'm going back to bed.

2026-10-13T10:23:28Z

none of this was worth it

I'm going back to bed.

:ina_hammer: :business:

2026-10-13T08:46:17Z

:ina_hammer:
:business:

I think I'm gonna swear off youtube it's just all doomer ...

2026-10-12T22:51:17Z

I think I'm gonna swear off youtube it's just all doomer shit I put on as background noise when I should be listening to music

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2026-10-12T20:13:02Z

make my brain go away

I brought it on myself. I was complaining about a specific ...

2026-10-12T15:46:08Z

I brought it on myself. I was complaining about a specific character that was annoying me, looking over the culture of his life and making fun of it, and instead I attracted a bunch of nicecrew people like "ahhh! I remember the good old days!" fucking hell

this faggot is everything wrong with southern culture. he is ...

2026-10-12T14:35:01Z

this faggot is everything wrong with southern culture. he is every pathology spawned when international jewry got ahold of hank william's son and turned him camp queer

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2026-10-12T12:01:34Z

are women just evil?

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2026-10-12T00:37:03Z

aint nobody gonna steal my pepperoni

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2026-10-11T18:43:08Z

I'm a cube now

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2026-10-09T04:38:45Z

relief.

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2026-10-08T16:23:23Z

for blacks mid is sss-tier it's as well as they can do

I don't really want a pet bird because it's kinda sad ...

2026-10-08T13:23:22Z

I don't really want a pet bird because it's kinda sad that they can't fly around free, but I wish I could befriend a wild bird enough that it would let me pet it

I hate these in-between times when you're done with all your ...

2026-10-07T12:16:59Z

I hate these in-between times when you're done with all your morning tasks but you have this gap until you have to get ready for work. not good at filling them-- I'm only good at going all out on something 24 hours for several days at once or completely losing track of time.

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2026-10-07T10:18:31Z

wjy does mt neighborhood always smell like burning plastic?

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2026-10-07T01:38:37Z

I wish I existed

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2026-10-07T01:34:08Z

what's happening homes

my job is making me psychically and physically nauseous. it takes ...

2026-10-05T20:46:42Z

my job is making me psychically and physically nauseous.

it takes claude about 45 minutes to make any simple change and it's getting longer because bossman keeps adding new rules and unnecessary layers of abstraction, trying desperately to get it to a point where he can understand it.

I know I'm not even close to being in the running, but I ...

2026-10-05T18:32:40Z

I know I'm not even close to being in the running, but I still gotta apply

>frontend launch scripts failing >no idea why >repo is ...

2026-10-05T15:53:10Z

>frontend launch scripts failing
>no idea why
>repo is fucking complicated, has like 30 layers of indirection, logs funneled to a corporate subscription elasticsearch instance
>had to dig up a login I haven't used since my first day on the job in order to get access
>had to drill down through 5 or 6 layers having to ask claude at every layer "OK what the fuck am I looking at?"
>finally get to the log entry at the time of the failure.
>nothing. just nothing ever gets written. Nuxt just stops at some point.
WHAT THE FUCK?!
>had claude write me a special runner so I could figure out why it was just stopping, had to include all the proper env vars that SHOULD JUST BE INSIDE .ENV FILES AND LOADED IN SOME SANE WAY BUT NO WE HAVE TO HAVE A SPECIAL CONFIG OBJECT ASSEMLER THAT WORKS FROM ENVVARS THAT ARE THEMSELVES ASSEMBLED AT RUNTIME USING ANOTHER SCRIPT.
>finllay I could run it manually
>the fucking retarded thing was stopping for an interactive prompt, and because it never flushed the line, nothing ever got written to the logs. I didn't even know this stupid thing COULD stop execution for an interactive prompt; why the fuck are you even doing this?
>this was the prompt:
"Nuxt collects completely anonymous data about usage. This will help us improve Nuxt developer experience over time. Read more on https://github.com/nuxt/telemetry. Are you interested in participating? Yes/No."
>nearly pulverize my montior with my keyboard.

I HATE THE ANTICHRIST

DUDE STOP PROGRAMMING! JUST STOP PROGRAMMING YOU ARE NOT GOOD AT ...

2026-10-05T13:29:48Z

DUDE STOP PROGRAMMING!

JUST STOP PROGRAMMING YOU ARE NOT GOOD AT IT!

usually it goes like this: >recommend me some music, I like ...

2026-10-04T21:44:04Z

usually it goes like this:
>recommend me some music, I like pretty much anything :happcat:
<ok sure here's what I like
>wow I hate this you're gay and this is a reflection on your character you are forever stained in my eyes holy shit

roflmao on comments about flock cameras going up in the USA, ...

2026-10-04T16:35:58Z

roflmao on comments about flock cameras going up in the USA, europeans are all "I'm so glad we have laws regulating the way public surveillance is used over here!"

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2026-10-04T15:16:28Z

I want some breakfast

I've decided to start digging a hole in my backyard. I ...

2026-10-04T08:18:13Z

I've decided to start digging a hole in my backyard. I don't know how long it'll take or how deep I'll go, but I don't plan to stop until I'm no longer physically capable. Wish me luck!

weirdly I'm getting inundated with videos and tweets in ...

2026-10-04T01:30:31Z

weirdly I'm getting inundated with videos and tweets in mainstream social media about DONT LOOK BACK

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2026-10-03T23:20:02Z

https://baj.ax/media/48/bc/95/48bc95958bbfdaad2f34d0ce3c8784ca7dc97dde06edbadc78bf0a112b4d2697.flac?name=01+Soft+Heat.flac

have to pay $65 for delivery because I don't know anyone who ...

2026-10-02T18:54:35Z

have to pay $65 for delivery because I don't know anyone who has a truck (I need a truck)

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2026-10-02T15:06:28Z

I'M FUKKEN WHITE

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2026-10-02T14:25:07Z

man I so want to go south before it gets really cold

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2026-10-02T00:13:53Z

i miss happy wheels

the male fantasy: quit job, drive directly home, shoot self in ...

2026-10-01T15:16:46Z

the male fantasy: quit job, drive directly home, shoot self in head

I have to leave my house to manage the emotional state of a ...

2026-10-01T12:33:42Z

I have to leave my house to manage the emotional state of a 55-year old man

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2026-10-01T01:58:18Z

guess we doin circles now

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2026-09-30T15:39:59Z

antinatalist batman

I should be working for money in the evenings and doing my hobby ...

2026-09-25T00:05:35Z

I should be working for money in the evenings and doing my hobby stuff during the daytime

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2026-09-14T02:19:19Z

I never had a chance from the very start