2026-11-04T05:33:38Z https://nostr.now bluestable351 https://nostr.now/npub1juqlpefcdpnpnnymntdpe396zh99daz9qcjhm3cd9dj845z8rwcqje3qxr https://nostr.now/nevent1qqs2qsr2uqe2jqxjaamy0pg3nsk4jedwmunaxlczpkkwtn30wdkxa4gzyztsru898p5xvxwvnwdd58xyhg2u54h5g5rz2lw8p54kg7ksgudmqpxu0hy If there is a better community to ask this question, I&#39;m all ears.<br/><br/>I majored in history because I like history. With a major like mine without a doctor thesis you can only work as a teacher and children are mostly idiots. You could try academia, but the ROI here is so much below zero it doesn’t make any sense.<br/><br/>As a child I was musically gifted but my parents never considered music as something worth following or studying. As an adult I bought me a classical guitar 12 years ago and a grand piano 5 years ago and started playing. I learned to play both instruments on my own.<br/><br/>Don’t think for a moment my technique is good enough to start studying at a conservatory for either instrument. I already rehearsed for a piano professor and he told me I must have invested an insane amount of time, that my technique is simply not good and if I want, he knows of 2 colleges that offer preparatory courses I could attend to.<br/><br/>I work as a firefighter and none of my coworkers even suspects I majored in history or that I’m capable of playing any instrument, it’s something I don’t talk about with any of them because I don’t believe they would understand and they’d start with intrusive questions I hate (if you are so talented like you claim and have a major in history, why are you wasting your time as a firefighter?). I already tried to find a decent job with history and failed. It’s something I don’t want to repeat with a possible major in music. Firefighting, as tiring and unfulfilling as it is, pays my bills and has given me a financial independence I never had, but I never saw myself here.<br/><br/>The curious thing is I have enough money to stop working and covering tuition fees and lodging for 4 years plus the preparatory year, but I don’t know if choosing this path would be the stupidest of decisions ever made. If I work part time, I don’t have to spend my whole savings.<br/><br/>Working as a firefighter I feel I’m wasting my life, I don’t want to be a firefighter till I retire, but this job has given me financial stability and I dread losing that.<br/><br/>I do my job and when I’m not very tired at home after doing the laundry, buying food and cooking, cleaning my apartment, walking a bit to disconnect... I play. It brings me joy but as of now it’s only a hobby. To even monetize it I would have to at least have a bachelor.<br/><br/>Is this what it looks like? 2026-08-23T16:46:53Z