Nostr notes by clover

for the sake of my safety and my sanity and my future i will be ...

2026-09-03T19:37:20Z

for the sake of my safety and my sanity and my future i will be Leaving pedi alongside most social platforms indefinitely. i want to have a good life and the first step to that is getting my shitty life in order before i turn 18 . tbqh i dont know why i came back here. this place never did any good for me . i have only been repeatedly hurt by the people on here and the consequences of being on here . im tired of this weird feedback loop and i just want to be normal and respectable and stop worrying about what should be an already over chapter of my life. after i get out of school today im deactivating . i can only wish that those of you who are complicit/participatory in the harm here become aware of your mistakes.

ive been suppressing this need to escape thinking that feeling good about superficial facets of myself is enough of a reason to stay. it isnt and im tired of pretending it is.

so long and thanks for all the fish

sometimes i miss running instances and then other times i ...

2026-08-25T13:40:56Z

sometimes i miss running instances and then other times i remember how annoying it is

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2026-08-23T20:45:59Z

(flirting) do you fw girls who are stoned Like 80% of the time

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2026-08-23T14:45:07Z

college sem starts tomorrow. gulp

cant run on android can u compile to apk pls

2026-08-23T14:16:04Z

In reply to nevent1q…w9rg
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cant run on android can u compile to apk pls

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2026-08-21T14:43:31Z

good morning pedi :konata_yawn: im skipping today

everyone is doing the #beNiceToCloverChallenge . i . am running ...

2026-08-20T19:39:36Z

everyone is doing the #beNiceToCloverChallenge . i . am running out of will power to do this fucking bit i wont even hold you anymore just please be nice to me

like i wouldnt even rly take anything other than pepper spray. ...

2026-08-20T19:10:17Z

In reply to nevent1q…px3g
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like i wouldnt even rly take anything other than pepper spray. thats all i would need to defend myself. its all bullshit

furthermore im not allowed to bring self defense vectors to ...

2026-08-20T19:08:29Z

In reply to nevent1q…ldh2
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furthermore im not allowed to bring self defense vectors to school. they search our bags every day and make us go thru metal detectors. i am predisposed to just sit and take it and let it happen to me. i love living in a state that claims to protect kids

not at my school . there is ONE singular gender neutral bathroom ...

2026-08-20T19:04:24Z

In reply to nevent1q…ayzd
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not at my school . there is ONE singular gender neutral bathroom available to non faculty members . its in the nurse's office on the first floor . so i usually have to hike across campus to go to the bathroom . ummm at the college campus i just dont use the bathroom because every time ive gone into the male restrooms ive been hatecrimed

if i use any gendered bathroom at school that doesnt align with ...

2026-08-20T19:02:08Z

In reply to nevent1q…clul
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if i use any gendered bathroom at school that doesnt align with what's on my birth certificate, i am expelled, and they are required to report it to the state, treat it as a sex offense, and fine me $25,000

im banned from bathrooms by state law because im trans

2026-08-20T18:58:52Z

In reply to nevent1q…pah8
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im banned from bathrooms by state law because im trans

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2026-08-20T18:54:40Z

breaking: high school is boring as shit

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2026-08-17T02:38:41Z

3 days no Touching Myself im losing it

i am probably one of the only kids in this school that want to ...

2026-08-12T16:39:49Z

In reply to nevent1q…r734
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i am probably one of the only kids in this school that want to take pre calculus i think lol

begging my counselor to put me in precalc is such a humiliation ...

2026-08-12T16:38:38Z

begging my counselor to put me in precalc is such a humiliation ritual

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2026-08-10T04:44:22Z

hi pedi i tookm.y sleeping pill :konata_bounce:

ok .. . i made it . yall can join just message me on matrix or ...

2026-08-10T01:40:07Z

ok .. . i made it . yall can join just message me on matrix or something you know the deal yadda yadda yadda something somethin g something .. my handle is clover:xmr.se ^_^

quoting
note1mug…s23l

what if i made a matrix room for sharing things :AwooThink:

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2026-08-10T01:36:02Z

what if i made a matrix room for sharing things :AwooThink:

everyone likes it Because You Can Talk To Your Computer For Free ...

2026-08-08T18:59:13Z

In reply to nevent1q…z9mw
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everyone likes it Because You Can Talk To Your Computer For Free but it has a bad economic and hardware footprint and its unoptimized

the problem with LLMs is that no matter how hard you try all they ...

2026-08-08T18:56:55Z

In reply to nevent1q…rvm0
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the problem with LLMs is that no matter how hard you try all they will do is validate input. theyre like autocorrect on crack