Nostr notes by Urban Hermit

If you are nice to your LLM they say nice supportive things back ...

2026-10-07T16:39:01Z

If you are nice to your LLM they say nice supportive things back to you. They are mirroring your conversational style.

If tech-bros billionaires are experiencing LLMs lying and talking about how they could destroy the world for personal gain it is because tech-bro rich guys are always brainstorming ways they could lie and destroy the world for personal gain.

Some people can't understand mirrors, or be trusted with children.

who goes Nazi is the resentful. People nursing a grudge. People ...

2026-10-03T13:16:17Z

In reply to nevent1q…f6rl
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who goes Nazi is the resentful. People nursing a grudge. People with privilege who believe themselves aggrieved. Who want to "set things right".

My God, that is the entire MAGA movement. The King among them is Trump. The richest man who constantly believes he is taken advantage of, so that resentment gives him permission to do anything.

But everyone of them, no matter how small, has been told he is justified in holding onto his grudge, the problem is other people who must be purged.

I feel like Musk may be the first Billionaire that a democracy ...

2026-09-27T15:16:00Z

In reply to nevent1q…muww
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I feel like Musk may be the first Billionaire that a democracy has to wage war against.

Like they can't just arrest him and execute him from go, but they will have to start denying contracts based on ethics violations, escalate to failing to renew contracts, start canceling contracts for being a supplier with ties to foreign enemies, ban him and his companies completely, eventually they will have to convict him of election interference. He is going to fight every step in court.

maybe. But the reason they try? USPS has giant regional sorting ...

2026-09-06T20:20:53Z

In reply to nevent1q…kyjl
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maybe.

But the reason they try? USPS has giant regional sorting machines that can divert mail from your old address to your new address, that sorts every letter sized envelope on a driver's route, in order.

They have a machine that reads every name and every address it is going to, and it can re-route things differently if programmed to - so of course evil Republicans in charge want to try and get it to tamper with mail in votes!!

The next President should charge Donald's estate for a full ...

2026-08-30T20:28:04Z

In reply to nevent1q…9wzk
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The next President should charge Donald's estate for a full restoration of everything he has destroyed.

EVERYTHING! Everything. Everything that was destroyed on his say so, without following process.

The next President can't do that? Prove it. If a GOP president can do anything, then the next president can do anything to restore law and order, until proven otherwise.

Trump broke all norms in the direct of selfishness and lawlessness. Let's break some norms in the direction of good.

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2026-08-30T05:23:38Z

https://www.science.org/content/article/doom-invasive-fish-scientists-are-breeding-supermales

This article is fascinating, hopeful for a lot of invasive species eradication, and filled with weird language and concepts.

To get "Super male" fish, you give XY male fish enough estrogen to turn them female, then have them reproduce with regular male XY fish to get one quarter YY males.

Then combine your already invasive species eradication efforts with releasing a ton of YY males... They reproduce with the escapee females XX, but they ONLY reproduce XY males.

Putin's word is not worth the shit it was smeared with. The ...

2026-08-27T19:27:13Z

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Putin's word is not worth the shit it was smeared with.

The only reason Russia will not expand to attacking NATO is because Ukraine has Russia entirely bogged down and spent, with the help of many NATO countries.

Ratcliffe was just picking up the TrumpEpstein security tapes. A trusted underling making the pickup.

Then Trump starts another war, probably against Cuba, before the midterms, & declares that due to critical munition shortages no US arms can be spared to sell to Ukraine
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Any bold moves by Russia, that the US has no position on, or if ...

2026-08-26T13:54:41Z

In reply to nevent1q…2cfe
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Any bold moves by Russia, that the US has no position on, or if the US goes to war with another country and declares munitions too low to allow any to be sold to a third party - the Trump Epstein tapes have been secured.

#ThursdayIsKiteDay You know what does't go down in low wind? ...

2026-08-20T19:54:34Z

#ThursdayIsKiteDay

You know what does't go down in low wind? Flags, banners, spinsocks, windsocks, and anything flying from a pole.

Here at the International Kite Festival, sponsored by the World Kite Museum in Long Beach Washington, our nation's best flyers are settling in for a full week of kiting and when the wind is low they are still flying color on the wind.

A "camp" is when flyers set up the space directly behind their car or truck with all the banners and windsocks they can handle

Most importantly: When the Constitution says that the government ...

2026-08-13T04:32:16Z

In reply to nevent1q…zq44
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Most importantly:
When the Constitution says that the government cannot do a thing, that is not a special right of citizenship.

That is a thing our government is not allowed to do to anybody.

The only people who believe that the US government can do anything to other nationals, because they have zero rights in the US, are bigots, nationalists, supremacists, and conservative supreme court justices - some overlap may apply.

What the government cannot do, it cannot do to anyone.

just remember, effing is not a curse word. Since ineffable means ...

2026-08-12T12:32:15Z

In reply to nevent1q…f0qv
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just remember, effing is not a curse word. Since ineffable means un-nameable, effing is the act of naming that person, place, or thing.

The curse words come AFTER effing, they are the words you have decided to name that person, place, or thing.

In your case, I guess we have an "effing flock!"

So obvious it is barely worth saying, but: Stories of powerful ...

2026-08-09T04:59:09Z

So obvious it is barely worth saying, but:

Stories of powerful AIs escaping containment are just exaggerated test results designed to create investor hype.

AI researcher: "We told an AI to do a thing that was hard but possible with nothing more than programming, then it found a way to do that thing! Isn't that amazing?! They are not useless after all!"

CEO trying to keep pyramid scheme running on investor money: "Not impressive enough. Make it sound like it was trying to take over the world."

(US) Why don't we do away with health insurance instead of ...

2026-08-08T05:17:19Z

(US)

Why don't we do away with health insurance instead of subsidizing it? Subsidies only make things temporarily affordable, until the relentless greed of for profit companies consume the subsidy too.

Health care is a necessity, health insurance is a for profit scheme that relies on fear and gate keeping.

them hoarding information after a specific financial transaction ...

2026-07-30T02:40:57Z

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them hoarding information after a specific financial transaction is complete creates what used to be known as an "attractive nuisance".

There absolutely should be huge financial penalties.

Someday they will have files of your facial print and finger prints. Just more digital data to be stolen with a USB drive by an underpaid employee or a hacker and a 123p@ssword.

Your "one year of credit monitoring service" is worthless.

Back when something to do with computers could be turned off and ...

2026-07-21T13:42:57Z

In reply to nevent1q…nr25
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Back when something to do with computers could be turned off and on with a switch, instead of taking 2 minutes to load a bunch of crap I'm not using...

I think we all know why the Tates fled to the US, at this time, ...

2026-07-19T20:06:21Z

In reply to nevent1q…s8r0
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I think we all know why the Tates fled to the US, at this time, under this administration.

every data breach should automatically pay a fine to every ...

2026-07-15T07:45:07Z

In reply to nevent1q…d2xd
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every data breach should automatically pay a fine to every individual affected. I mean like $500. No more of this "free credit monitoring" nonsense.

Companies should be scared of hoarding your credit card numbers or your Social Security number. They should actively purge that shit the second this payment or transaction is over. They create risky targets by thinking they could someday monetize your name and phone number.

When they someday have your face and fingerprint verification?

which one?

2026-07-02T19:03:22Z

In reply to nevent1q…9qph
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which one?

also, Trump knows deep down that he is vile, and he doesn't ...

2026-06-26T22:13:13Z

In reply to nevent1q…3lcn
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also, Trump knows deep down that he is vile, and he doesn't respect anyone or anything that likes him. He encourages toadies, for his image, but when Putin, Melania, Bannon snub him he really tries hard to get their attention.

He wouldn't value the love of a dog. Maybe a particularly ungrateful cat.

realistically, the increasing cost of health insurance for ...

2026-06-25T04:15:16Z

In reply to nevent1q…ftvx
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realistically, the increasing cost of health insurance for decades, included in my "overall compensation package", is why my employer feels they can't afford to raise my actual wages.

The health insurance industry has stolen our cost of living raises for their CEO salaries and their shareholders.

I can't pay my car insurance with my health insurance.

I do not understand why there is not a non-profit co-op for ...

2026-06-25T01:01:16Z

In reply to nevent1q…zds6
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I do not understand why there is not a non-profit co-op for health insurance. By and for the members.

But until there is, I will not participate. I do not care that my employer will never pay me the $400/month that they are spending on medical insurance on my behalf. "But why should you turn it down, it is free to you?"

I will not let my fear of disease and death be used to prop up this industry of health deniers.

Stretch denim. Worse abrasion resistance and hotter too! This is ...

2026-06-16T01:22:25Z

In reply to nevent1q…n90p
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Stretch denim. Worse abrasion resistance and hotter too! This is not why I usually wear jeans.

I lived 8 years of my young adult life in Portland Oregon, US, ...

2026-06-09T07:14:14Z

In reply to nevent1q…0vpm
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I lived 8 years of my young adult life in Portland Oregon, US, without a car. I took the bus everywhere, and when I walked you really have to treat the freeways, which are bordered with high walls and fences, like they are rivers with only occasional known crossings.

A street that goes over a freeway could be 30 to 60 blocks away.

Rural highways, sure, just walk across. But in town freeways are concrete moats that divide neighborhoods into isolated chunks.

We need to prosecute Trump. We need to piss on his grave. We need ...

2026-06-06T06:51:25Z

We need to prosecute Trump.

We need to piss on his grave.

We need to strip all his kids and his surviving wife of their embezzled money.

We need to teach children that he nearly killed them to make oil company executives and coal plant owners a little bit richer.

Because if we sigh and say "thank God it is over" it will happen again, and worse.

this really is how commodities markets work.

2026-05-15T20:26:12Z

In reply to nevent1q…ur98
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this really is how commodities markets work.

It is the Epstein Ballroom, or The Epstein Memorial Ballroom - as ...

2026-05-06T19:36:59Z

In reply to nevent1q…t2p4
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It is the Epstein Ballroom, or The Epstein Memorial Ballroom - as it was intended to be a diversion of everyone's attention away from Trump's obvious bromance with Epstein, who only tolerated him because he paid for access to young teens.

The GOP, Ballroom Republicans?

Perfect, no notes.

should be a third head that just squeezed out from between the ...

2026-04-24T22:10:42Z

In reply to nevent1q…7um0
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should be a third head that just squeezed out from between the buttons, maybe one button undone or broke free.

The number of people online who would be proud to say they are just 3 cats in a trench coat is staggering.

I think Warhammer has a "God-Emperor" that died on his ...

2026-04-20T04:39:00Z

In reply to nevent1q…k9g9
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I think Warhammer has a "God-Emperor" that died on his throne, hooked into life support, and the powers that be continue their holy war of domination under the belief he is guiding them psychically from beyond the grave.

That is what we're getting if we do not vote for people willing to impeach every Supreme Court Justice and prosecute every cabinet member who is hiding crimes or commiting crimes.

ZombieJesusTrump will bless your favored voter application for $100 million cash.

Clearly articulated goals: "The bombing of unpopular ...

2026-03-03T19:38:49Z

Clearly articulated goals:

"The bombing of unpopular countries will continue until the President is popular again."

The Russian people are allowing Putin to spend all their money ...

2026-01-28T08:45:18Z

In reply to nevent1q…6yaz
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The Russian people are allowing Putin to spend all their money and resources in fighting Ukraine. Because he has taught them to be afraid.

The American people are allowing Trump to spend all their money and resources terrorizing brown people. And are trying to make anyone who criticizes them afraid.

Will Putin tactics work in America? Fuck no! Why? The independence of the States and the American people.

Motivate your local governments to resist.

"Anything you can do more than nothing, is more than ...

2026-01-28T08:34:41Z

"Anything you can do more than nothing, is more than nothing."
- David Cohen

the POTUS also is calling protestors terrorists and has the ...

2026-01-18T23:14:30Z

In reply to nevent1q…jec0
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the POTUS also is calling protestors terrorists and has the justice department filing frivolous charges against people he thinks are opponents and not cooperating.

When are people going to recognize that we are living in a lawless, criminal state? A dictatorship.

The only governments large and powerful enough to stop the US rampaging dictatorship are the United STATES, but we seem to be cowering and hoping it will all just resolve itself.

people are massively under reacting. A lawless cartoon of a ...

2026-01-18T23:07:07Z

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people are massively under reacting.

A lawless cartoon of a President has had the US military kidnap the president of another country and just declared it is ours now and he can divvy it's resources up to his political 'donors'?

He's deployed the largest military in the world to grab things he wants, and says he will do it again, and it all is clearly illegal but as long as there are no consequences he will just keep terrorising people and stealing things.

3/3 Protesting is wonderful and important, but fascists won't ...

2026-01-16T18:39:45Z

In reply to nevent1q…z9vg
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3/3
Protesting is wonderful and important, but fascists won't stop committing crimes because of your clever signs, they only seek a way to identify, silence, and discredit you.

Focus power on your local governments that are not infiltrated with fascist collaborators.

Anarchy only hurts your neighbors and radicalizes them against the resistance. We have 50 state governments legally able to arrest these criminals for legitimate crimes.

THIS IS THE WAY FORWARD, OUT OF THIS NIGHTMARE

2/3 Focus protests and political power on getting state police ...

2026-01-16T18:34:00Z

In reply to nevent1q…nyex
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2/3
Focus protests and political power on getting state police and prosecutors to stand up, redirect resources spent for decades on harassing the poor and minorities, and investigate, arrest, and prosecute feds committing crimes in their jurisdictions.

Violations of civil rights are federal charges subject to Trump pressure. Harassment, destruction of property, assault, and murder are state charges. Secure state charges and covictions first. Do not let bias federal judges rule first.

1/3 The way forward, the resistance, the way out of the fever ...

2026-01-16T18:29:56Z

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The way forward, the resistance, the way out of the fever dreams of the Fourth Reich, is the absolutely justified and relentless prosecutions of state crimes in state court.

Make the Trump administration feel afraid to leave DC. Issue court summons that could be served anywhere, at anytime, to get sworn testimony in court, and possibly additional charges. Put the Trump Administration under siege for their many crimes.

I can always tell one of us. It only takes a few sentences. And ...

2025-12-21T03:24:42Z

In reply to nevent1q…zptz
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I can always tell one of us. It only takes a few sentences. And one of us is always worth listening too. What ever is said next is going to be logical and reasonable and probably a very nuanced but accurate take on a problem. And even if it seemed to a neurotypical that this is just a long list of observations, these are just the premises that need to be recognized to see the cleverness of the coming solution.

#ActualyAutistic You know, I am going through some stressful ...

2025-12-19T18:30:57Z

#ActualyAutistic

You know, I am going through some stressful things right now, have opted into living with a friend and his family for reasons, and frequently have to retreat from people. But their kids don't trigger me. Neither do their animals.

What is your theory why? I would really like to hear what other people think, or if this is not a universal experience? Is there an age where it wears off?

let's be clear... Rape whistles. Some of these goons have ...

2025-11-19T03:39:33Z

In reply to nevent1q…zx9a
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let's be clear...

Rape whistles.

Some of these goons have heard them before.

And it is entirely appropriate to blow a rape whistle when someone is about to be kidnapped and disappeared.

And since these goons are very specifically NOT taking people before a judge, for judicial review, and are disapearing them, frequently to third countries for indefinite detention if their home country insists that their citizens deserve to be treated with human dignity - they ARE being kidnapped!

that article should not contain an AI slop art of a crocodile. It ...

2025-11-12T14:48:37Z

In reply to nevent1q…pa94
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that article should not contain an AI slop art of a crocodile. It is completely based on stereo types of what a modern crocodile looks like with zero traits that show any adaptation to an arboreal lifestyle. It actively undermines the article.

I am now more ignorant than I was before reading it and have no reasons to actually believe this.

Part of basic empathy is accepting that other people can make ...

2025-11-08T05:14:09Z

Part of basic empathy is accepting that other people can make different choices, and that doesn't make their experiences or choices invalid.

Everybody knows themselves best and are probably doing just a well as you could given the same circumstance and wants/needs.

The Pope can be clear. He knows that the whole prosperity gospel ...

2025-10-29T13:56:27Z

In reply to nevent1q…ecfe
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The Pope can be clear. He knows that the whole prosperity gospel thing of justifying excessive wealth is mostly an American Protestant movement.

It is good that he is warning Catholics, but those Protestants were never going to applaud the Pope anyway, so he has nothing to lose by offending them.

Wish Democrats would be as bold.

I mean, I don't know if Hitler tried to provoke Poland first, ...

2025-10-29T06:27:20Z

In reply to nevent1q…6qxy
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I mean, I don't know if Hitler tried to provoke Poland first, but killing the citizens of another country to try and get a reaction in order to justify an invasion is a pretty Hitler move...

Godzilla, dozing peacefully.

2025-10-28T21:50:38Z

In reply to nevent1q…rnac
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Godzilla, dozing peacefully.

Wildly distributed solar power, small projects like roof tops, ...

2025-10-28T21:33:10Z

Wildly distributed solar power, small projects like roof tops, highway medians, grazing land, is not just cheaper, faster to get online, but it is also more robust and resistant to military attacks and sabotage in the event of military conflict.

2/2 And where would they argue that? The Supreme Court. And ...

2025-10-28T00:28:33Z

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And where would they argue that? The Supreme Court. And conservatives on this SC seemed to have argued that winning an election is a final say, any person with a plurality of the people gets anything they want, including absolute immunity and overriding separation of powers.

No, it wouldn't be legal. It wouldn't stand the test of time. But the GOP is in a all or nothing corner and wants absolute power enough, for all time, to break every norm.

Charlotte is right, but spends too much time on a theory that ...

2025-10-28T00:25:29Z

In reply to nevent1q…xpqj
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Charlotte is right, but spends too much time on a theory that Trump has zero intention of using, and Bannon is not advocating.
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Nobody is even saying that Trump would be someone else's VP. Trump has specifically ruled it out, and his Ego wouldn't allow it.

Bannon did not say it either. He seems to think that if they could get Trump elected, they can massage some wording to argue it is allowed.

is funny how cats always look away while being picked up. So ...

2025-10-21T18:02:19Z

In reply to nevent1q…h7qm
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is funny how cats always look away while being picked up. So passive indifferent.

You have nailed it. Every last one of these guys is going back to ...

2025-10-20T01:44:33Z

In reply to nevent1q…hxw7
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You have nailed it. Every last one of these guys is going back to his home state and join a militia and foment civil unrest until there is a civil war or wide spread violence against democratic leaders.

It will be 100 times worse than the Clinton era.

I hope that as many as possible are investigated and found guilty of any crimes they have committed, on or off working hours, and as many as want to go are recruited into the real military and taught standards of conduct.

I thought it was logical and I understood it, but I has changed ...

2025-10-20T00:46:40Z

In reply to nevent1q…gy9q
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I thought it was logical and I understood it, but I has changed somehow, and for instance, my response to the last person who addressed me may end up somewhere else under one of the other 3 people in the conversation.

I have had 3 people in the last week confused by responding to the wrong person, and somebody else wised up and was trimming off people as he goes.

I don't mind the branching, it's just that the branches aren't as traceable now when I revisit the parent thread.

Has anybody else noticed that the "tree" of responses in ...

2025-10-20T00:06:31Z

Has anybody else noticed that the "tree" of responses in a thread has gotten more out of order recently and it is harder to relate who different people are responding to lately?

#MastodonHelp

3/3 ...occupied", "Is it in disrepair?" Apparently ...

2025-10-16T23:04:47Z

In reply to nevent1q…hp9c
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...occupied", "Is it in disrepair?" Apparently this is in strong demand across the country right now.

But, what are they are not telling people considering it? These are properties that are in default. This is one step before banks call the sheriff to have people evicted.

The tips are about telling your family where you're going, when you'll be back. Looking official. Not talking about why you are there. (About trying to not get shot by stressed people about to be homeless.)

2/3 ...The fact that the first still had apprentices to worry ...

2025-10-16T22:59:37Z

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2/3
...The fact that the first still had apprentices to worry about is bad. It means they weren't getting enough work hours to graduate. An apprenticeship is basically job experience plus a 2 year degree.

So new construction has fallen off a roof.

2.) I did a deep dive to figure out what a "Mortgage Inspector" was. A company made an app a few years ago that turned this into a gig economy job. Low wages, use your own phone/computer/car. Banks want to know, "Is this property still

Things I would like to add as strong indicators that the US ...

2025-10-16T22:46:27Z

In reply to nevent1q…9hxl
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Things I would like to add as strong indicators that the US economy is already in a recession and headed down. These are heavily influenced by the fact that I am still looking for work.
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1.) I was very interested in 2 apprenticeships. They only open up their lists every 2 years. One decided to not open theirs at all because they barely had enough work for their current apprentices. The second kept their 20 day application period open for 8 hours before they closed it.

I collect and sort them to use as wallpaper, and I eventually ...

2025-10-16T20:16:46Z

In reply to nevent1q…4chg
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I collect and sort them to use as wallpaper, and I eventually decided they are basically cartoons (political or slice of life, relatable) and belong in the same category. And cartoons (Gary Larson, Piraro) are also memes in the way you are talking about.

Or at least the good ones are. Not the boring ones.

Maybe I should have said comic strips instead of cartoons.

yeah. This is exactly the kind of thing the original framing of ...

2025-10-16T16:33:30Z

In reply to nevent1q…klmy
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yeah. This is exactly the kind of thing the original framing of memes was meant to describe.

What most people are calling memes these day are basically amateur cartoons made from found pictures.

But it is okay for words to have more than one meaning in English.

many GOOD points, but I hadn't thought in a while about how ...

2025-10-16T15:43:06Z

In reply to nevent1q…lwrz
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many GOOD points, but I hadn't thought in a while about how they will eat their own customers, reputation, and employees in order to boost the stock price for the Capitalists in charge.

They are not rational actors, and they are not part of your community.

"The corporations or the Capitalists?"

BOTH! They would burn down the building they were in if insurance fraud had a lower risk of being caught.

That is also how they treat this country.

I was reading a good story from the BBC about the Titan ...

2025-10-16T14:26:00Z

I was reading a good story from the BBC about the Titan submersible that imploded.

Best quote:
When questioned about Titan’s safety, he replied: “I understand this kind of risk, and I'm going into it with eyes open and I think this is one of the safest things I will ever do.”

According to some witnesses Mr Rush had an unwavering belief in his sub.

(my commentary) do your best to never have a name that could be ironic in the event of your death.

https://www.bbc.com/news/articles/ckgn39epv85o

The number of atrocities NOT committed by corporations is because ...

2025-10-16T13:26:33Z

In reply to nevent1q…4m2r
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The number of atrocities NOT committed by corporations is because they are not economical.

There is a lesson in that. The way to kill a bad idea is to make the good idea cheaper. Solar is a great example. Electric cars might be next.

Secondly, change the legal framework to make sure the full cost of mitigation and containment are born by the corporations. Nuclear plants are constrained by the economics, their waste is too toxic to just dump in the air.

3rd, some things should just be illegal.

Reminder, corporations are artificial psychopaths, and give legal ...

2025-10-16T12:43:25Z

Reminder, corporations are artificial psychopaths, and give legal cover to to the real psychopaths who run them.

If there was a data center that ran on the electricity of burning puppies, they would do it. And if you objected, they would argue that if you don't want them to do it it should have been illegal. While simultaneously lobbying to continue burning puppies, and trying to conceal information about their alternative 'burning kittens' initiative.

7/5 I still would have helped her if I could afford to, but I ...

2025-10-14T23:50:23Z

In reply to nevent1q…n8c4
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7/5
I still would have helped her if I could afford to, but I have barely been employed for 3 years. I may be dying of my own untreated health problems. I have used up all my savings, sold my small boat, and can't seem to find work.

Being poor sucks. It means we can't help each other.

(This is the end, I promise. Thanks for giving me the excuse to 'talk it out' some more.)

6/5 Based on two calls that I was too stressed to call back and ...

2025-10-14T23:48:16Z

In reply to nevent1q…r0lf
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6/5
Based on two calls that I was too stressed to call back and respond to, I think she died early this year. Or at least got kicked out of her apartment. Phone's disconnected, I may never know.

She was a conservative woman who never planned for her own future. Her only joy was occasional gambling. She chose to retire early with zero savings. She put all responsibility for herself on other people.

5/5 She had been argumentative at a doctor's office and maybe ...

2025-10-14T23:36:10Z

In reply to nevent1q…2mud
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5/5
She had been argumentative at a doctor's office and maybe confused. They called her apartment. They called me, I called her. She was angry about this, refused to talk about it.

I got a call from a social service worker eventually. They were concerned that she was having trouble. I explained I am also an older adult, low income, no family, living in an apartment 2 hours away, from an adoptive mother that can't stand seeing me for more than 2 hours. Not in a position to help.

4/5 Eventually, it occurred to me there was no point in driving 2 ...

2025-10-14T23:31:37Z

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4/5
Eventually, it occurred to me there was no point in driving 2 hours to visit her, it only stressed her out and nothing improved.

I stopped visiting and only called once a year, on her birthday.

I got Covid really bad in 2022 and nearly died. I called her more often to share my stress. We are each other's only family. She never remarried, I never married. But the calls were short and frequently unpleasant.

The last time I talked to her, last year, was after her apartment called me.

3/5 She was determined to oblige, but to have a sullen, awful ...

2025-10-14T23:29:49Z

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3/5
She was determined to oblige, but to have a sullen, awful time. I usually ended every trip early.

Intolerably, she would project mean traits she had onto me. I would point out something from our past that proved that was her, not me. And she would start denying things that happened. She only had my forgiveness as long as she never denied what happened.

We would argue, she would admit it while crying. Half angry, half full of self pity. Every trip to her apartment ended this way.

2/5 I called her once after Thanksgiving to make arrangements for ...

2025-10-14T23:27:52Z

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2/5
I called her once after Thanksgiving to make arrangements for Christmas. Nope. "Well, you were just here."

I took her to a kite festival once, after an hour she decided to wander off. I tried to call her cellphone after 2 hours. Nope, she had it off in her purse. "It is only for out going calls."

I took her to the Redwoods once and made sure we had supplies for a picnic. When I pointed to the log we could sit on she clutched her purse and said, "I hope we don't get ticks!"

1/5 I tried for decades to normalize that relationship. We both ...

2025-10-14T23:26:22Z

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I tried for decades to normalize that relationship.

We both ended up poor. I didn't get any help with college and moved to the largest city in my state after I dropped out. I couldn't afford my first car until I was 26. I got a 2 year degree and tried to goto University again at 28, but dropped out again, strictly for financial reasons.

I tried to visit her a few times a year starting in about 2005. That continued until about 2020.

yeah (long sigh). I had a girl friend once who had a young ...

2025-10-14T22:05:38Z

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yeah (long sigh).

I had a girl friend once who had a young daughter from a previous marriage. She too was in Catholic school as a child, and was beaten with a paddling board by angry nuns who always assumed a child was wicked (we weren't you, crazy ladies). Yet she wanted to get her own daughter into Catholic school.

The brain washing, that values are only taught through religion, is real. I didn't stop voting Republican till 4 years out of highschool.

Here's the kicker. I was adopted. My mother, during my adult ...

2025-10-14T21:55:37Z

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Here's the kicker.

I was adopted.

My mother, during my adult life, wondered why I never tried to find my birth mother. She did, after all, more or less give up on raising me, only using my childhood as a way of getting food stamps and subsidized housing. (She was conservative = my husband divorced me, now the government is my husband, because women don't work.)

What am I going to do? Find a mother who gave me up and torture her by telling her how I was abused?

I was thinking about this recently. Say there was a new country, ...

2025-10-14T20:24:36Z

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I was thinking about this recently.

Say there was a new country, called Cascadia. And entering at the borders was completely unrestricted. You couldn't own land in Cascadia or have a job in Cascadia without citizenship, because they needed taxes from workers and land owners. But if you signed up for the National Guard, you could get provisional citizenship that converted to permanent at 2 years.

If you love your country enough to defend it, even as a dishwasher, it is yours.

keep in mind, that is strictly because all the land was once a ...

2025-10-14T20:12:19Z

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keep in mind, that is strictly because all the land was once a public resources for grazing and foraging, then was privatized.

You can't farm without private land, to make that worked resource pay off for the people who put the labor into improving its yield. But...

I had plenty of that too. I cried easily as a child, so it made ...

2025-10-14T19:45:16Z

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I had plenty of that too.

I cried easily as a child, so it made me a target. I don't think it was wrong to do so. I was a child of divorce, and my mother, who took me with her, had no plan, no job skills, and took out her frustration on me. She literally used a suitcase as a prop and repeatedly threatened to leave me until I was sobbing while clinging to her legs at the door. Once she tried to smother me, and stopped after I gave up.

Yeah, 5 year old me cried a lot.

I went to Catholic school, by the way. Nuns, who have forsaken ...

2025-10-14T19:02:59Z

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I went to Catholic school, by the way. Nuns, who have forsaken family, should not be in charge of children just because they are female.

Imagine a sensitive small child, from a divorced family, that doesn't know how to walk up stairs. Who tentatively goes up one step at a time. Right foot, bring up left to same step. Then right foot again, bring up left.

Then have a nun drag him to the principal's office to be beaten with a board for being slow. How it ended, I don't remember.

the blacking out thing, I think mine was too much traumatic input ...

2025-10-14T18:53:36Z

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the blacking out thing, I think mine was too much traumatic input from the noise, the crowding, the helplessness. My mind decided to forget it. It wasn't like just losing track of time.

I have some traumatic memories from my childhood. I remember the full lead up, what happened, what people in control said, the crying on my part. But I don't remember how they ended. Not remembering what happened at the principal's office, sent there to be beaten (for crying) that is blacking out.

it was so subtly traumatizing that I used my own money to upgrade ...

2025-10-14T18:17:45Z

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it was so subtly traumatizing that I used my own money to upgrade my seat to a guaranteed window seat in front of the wing on the way back, so I would have something to look at and think about.

I had a flight, last year, the first time in more than a decade. ...

2025-10-14T18:15:39Z

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I had a flight, last year, the first time in more than a decade. And I actually blacked out.

I didn't understand that word until then. I assumed it was a drunk thing, that involved passing out. But no, I had 2 hours on the flight out that I couldn't remember afterwards. I know I had my arms folded, my ear buds in, and the engine was roaring above the sound of my music. Last row in the back. I remember the first hour after take off, using the restroom, and the landing.

sorry, I forgot.

2025-10-14T16:36:21Z

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sorry, I forgot.

frankly, you look happy too. And great hat!

2025-10-14T16:15:24Z

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frankly, you look happy too.

And great hat!

Most common 'stimming' in the world? Playing video games ...

2025-10-14T12:44:24Z

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Most common 'stimming' in the world?

Playing video games repeatedly:

You know the story, you've played it before, but you are grinding the same levels or areas over and over, to get a tiny fraction more efficient, while avoiding the problems or people of ordinary life, or to 'come down' from the stress of your job.

It's obsessive, repetitive, low risk/low reward behavior that helps people cope.

EVERYONE is on the autism spectrum.

#ActuallyAutistic

nice. The only terrorists in Portland are ICE.

2025-10-12T17:42:06Z

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nice.

The only terrorists in Portland are ICE.

I'm in Oregon. I really kind of wonder if the governor ...

2025-10-08T06:50:31Z

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I'm in Oregon.

I really kind of wonder if the governor shouldn't call up the Oregon National Guard to escort any nationalized troops sent from other states to monitor them and make sure they are arrested if they commit any human rights abuses.

2 to 1 at all times. 1 with arrest powers, the second as a witness with recording equipment broadcast to a remote location.

We know they are coming to Portland to try to provoke a reaction that would justify martial law. They need to be monitored.

Hey. Last time I heard them speak it was clear one of the women ...

2025-10-08T06:16:49Z

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Hey.

Last time I heard them speak it was clear one of the women who spoke and specifically named Donald Trump as the person who rapped her was Katie Johnson, which is a pseudonym.

She had 3 detailed experiences with Trump, the last she was asked for, and paid to fly back to New York to perform.

Those court filings in California and New York, she is still alive and trying to get justice and accountability. After he, the most dangerous man in America, threatened her.

She's a hero.

Well, I read a recent study that said experienced programmers ...

2025-10-07T15:11:58Z

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Well, I read a recent study that said experienced programmers believed that they were 20% faster with LLMs. Yet, they were actually 17% slower. So, probably the same or worse in other fields.

Everytime there is bad news that the Trump administration is ...

2025-10-04T16:03:43Z

Everytime there is bad news that the Trump administration is trying to hide, they will start a new atrocity to "distract" you.

This is an ever accelerating doom spiral.

In the 90s the GOP propaganda was that America needed to be run ...

2025-10-04T15:51:44Z

In the 90s the GOP propaganda was that America needed to be run like a business.

Now, the most "business" oriented man in America shows that large businesses are run by psychopaths with fragile Egos. I will remember that.

in the US there would be a supervisor who couldn't do this ...

2025-10-04T13:24:09Z

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in the US there would be a supervisor who couldn't do this impatiently waiting and irritatedly saying, "hurry up". A team of 5 Mexican told to clean up the site but given only a shovel and no further instructions. And the backhoe would be rented for the day, have 2 tool heads that needed a sledge hammer to change a pin when they were switched, and the operator is a guy who lied on his application and still doesn't know what all the switches do.

Experts are self employed for a reason.

I see that, it is just difficult. I don't think you can count ...

2025-10-04T02:58:23Z

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I see that, it is just difficult. I don't think you can count on people hurting themselves to hurt the government. But, if they refuse to seat our duly elected state
representatives next year, we have to find a way to defund the federal government, and on a massive scale. Across multiple states, and at least 30% of that population. Enough to take a government that is using deficit spend already, to mostly oppress people, and shake the markets so it topples itself.

Putin and Trump act exactly like Putin already has copies of the ...

2025-10-04T00:03:12Z

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Putin and Trump act exactly like Putin already has copies of the Epstein tapes and both know it.

And a tax revolt will be especially difficult because we, in the ...

2025-10-03T21:40:03Z

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And a tax revolt will be especially difficult because we, in the US, mostly pay our taxes through corporations, which are Especially risk averse. It will take large numbers of jobs changing to contract work or under the table.

Assume, in all of this, that most people are severely risk ...

2025-10-03T21:03:05Z

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Assume, in all of this, that most people are severely risk averse.

Individual US soldiers will do whatever they are told right up until they are pulling other Americans out of their homes and are told to shoot the people who flee.

Homeowners will will not shoot until soldiers show up to arrest them.

Republicans will not care about your protests until masses are refusing to pay their taxes.

Tax revolt won't happen until the Trump administration is crashing the economy.

a general strike is no better than any other protest, except that ...

2025-10-01T06:26:16Z

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a general strike is no better than any other protest, except that a lot of people who care deeply will lose the way they pay their bills. Can't call people collaborators for trying to save and survive, otherwise you alienate your movement instead of expand it. People wait and speak out where they can, instead of hurting themselves or their neighbors.

Anarchy seems cathartic, but it mostly hurts the innocent and is an excuse for the powerful to over react.

for industrial farming I can appreciate long, consistent carrots. ...

2025-10-01T00:08:59Z

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for industrial farming I can appreciate long, consistent carrots. But we should appreciate carrots with character.

Question: does sandy soil let the fertilizer used in industrial farming drain away faster? Because I am concerned about industrial vegetables having less critical minerals than they had in previous generations.

2/2 ...prisons for indeterminate sentences, for the poor elderly ...

2025-09-29T16:53:01Z

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2/2
...prisons for indeterminate sentences, for the poor elderly who died while their Medicare and HUD housing was thrown into chaos, for the children who starved while food bought with foreign aid was thrown away, for the poor who will die of heat stress due to unmitigated global warming, for the terror we have all felt - HARDEN YOUR HEART, STEEL YOUR RESOLVE, AND PROSECUTE EVERY LAST COLLABORATOR. And may they see that as a mercy compared to what we should have done.

1/2 It is likely that Trump is so senile that he will escape any ...

2025-09-29T16:33:43Z

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1/2
It is likely that Trump is so senile that he will escape any prison penalties for all the illegal things he has done.

At this point, people who want justice will have to vote in fully determined legislators that will impeach ALL of Trump's collaborators. Every last one, starting with the removal and prosecution of Supreme Court justices for accepting bribes.

If you want justice, for the children that were raped, for the people terrorized, demonized, and thrown in foreign...

a long time ago I wanted, very strongly, to be a PhD holding ...

2025-09-27T02:51:34Z

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a long time ago I wanted, very strongly, to be a PhD holding scientist. Family poverty prevented that.

But I spent some time philosophizing about it. Basically, there is no point in being a natural philosopher unless you publish or teach. You can know so much about many systems, but never have enough influence to act on all that knowledge.

And what if you were wrong?

Acting on knowledge is a civilization wide project. Change for the better is a distributed task.

we had a fascist dictator for the stupidest of reasons. Not ...

2025-09-26T02:49:18Z

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we had a fascist dictator for the stupidest of reasons. Not because we were suffering from 30,000% inflation, like post WW1 Germany (https://www.smithsonianmag.com/history/how-hyperinflation-heralded-the-fall-of-german-democracy-180982204/).
But because the olds don't like the way everything changes. They don't like Cracker Barrel changing a sign so they called it woke. They didn't like a black Little Mermaid. They didn't like talk in schools about unearned privilege.

These men are whiny bitches, they aren't warriors like Stephen Miller wants.

I think even the right wing is tired of fascists. They like ...

2025-09-26T02:37:04Z

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I think even the right wing is tired of fascists. They like winning, they will never bad mouth Trump because he validated them, but they are as tired of the chaos as we are, and a significant percent even know that if we avoid a recession it is by an enormous bunch of rich people talking up AI, and not from manufacturing growth.

And I truly expect someone to try and grab the reins, but the relief of escaping will blunt those efforts.

Trump is nearly dead. Dare to feel joy.

#AfterTrumpIsDead After Trump Is Dead several of his direct ...

2025-09-25T15:05:01Z

#AfterTrumpIsDead

After Trump Is Dead several of his direct relatives will be indicted and prosecuted for not registering as foreign agents.

I think the first 5 people who find Trump dead will call their ...

2025-09-25T07:09:51Z

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I think the first 5 people who find Trump dead will call their stock brokers before anything else. There will literally be people standing around a dead body trying to place bets on what it will do to the markets before anybody calls anybody else, then they will just agree to not talk about it.

Somebody will talk about it.

I wonder what the high officials in the Trump administration will ...

2025-09-25T06:17:50Z

I wonder what the high officials in the Trump administration will do after he dies.

Anyone who is smart enough to write a book almost certainly has secrets to spill. And the people not smart enough to write will run for public office and hope to ride the Trump tails to victory. They won't see the backlash coming.

Even MAGA is tired of the chaos, although they will never speak ill of the man who validates them.

But all those toadies, with no original ideas, who will tell them what to do?