I get that feeling. Eurovision is a special interest for me (that other people in my life didn't understand) so it feels like this year is empty? I really hope so.
If things heal I will return for a show (if lucky), the pre-parties and the hype.
Yeah, it sounds difficult to turn down but is definitely the right thing to do. I can only hope things get better but this year I haven't followed the preselection shows or any of the hype for a reason.