So fucking overwhelmed and stressed today.
But also really proud of myself for identifying my feelings and communicating then in a stressful moment.
I had to do a stress echocardiogram test today. The technician explained the procedure at the beginning, but I was already feeling overwhelmed from dealing with a stressful situation right before the appointment so I didn't catch everything she said.
All of a sudden she's like "okay we're going to put in the IV now" and my brain went NOPE YOU'RE NOT
Getting blood drawn is incredibly stressful for me. I need time to emotionally prepare and time to recover afterward. The last time I had an IV put in, I almost blacked out.
There was no way I could deal with a surprise IV given all the other stimulation of the day.
So I spoke up. I spoke up without feeling guilty or ashamed or like my feelings were invalid. I told them I didn't think I could handle the IV right now. I asked if there was any way to do it without the IV. They said they could but the ultrasound might not be as clear.
So I did it without the IV.
I feel proud of myself for speaking up, for trusting my feelings, and for communicating them quickly. I've spent my whole life powering through stressful and overwhelming situations, believing I had no choice. But I have a choice.
#ActuallyAutistic #Neurodivergent #ADHD #AuDHD
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