Noa on Nostr: well then apologies because I'm functionally a coward. All I've been doing with this ...

well then apologies because I'm functionally a coward. All I've been doing with this is a result of having 0 willpower/desire to live & still needing to function. A single doubt is able to paralyze me when I enter a depressive cycle & lock me in until I resolve it. That's why I said above I could talk about it but was unwilling to debate yet. I need something more tangible than my experience to prevent doubt from entering since I'm constantly worried about whether I'm deluding myself since I know white people are prone to savior complexes & this project of mine is at a minimum in an adjacent genre.