Oh this impostor syndrome, I feel it's very hard to deal with it :x
Because I'm gfluid, half of the time I'm like "yeahee, that's me" and the other half "hu, isn't this just a face ?", it took me more than a decade to get that's it' not just something I made up.
But on an other side, I too lazy for faking stuff for a long time, and a trans streamer that I follow said something like "If you are questionning your gender id for some time, you are definitely not completely cis ; cis people don't question it, and definitely don't take any steps into exploring their gender.". This helped me very much into processing that my gender id is not maked up, and the rest is just exploring it, like others could explore trends to find something comfortable to them :3
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