haunted tangle of haunted gaps on Nostr: old nexuses wonder how the fuck they even got old. like what do i do. we didn't ...

old nexuses wonder how the fuck they even got old. like what do i do. we didn't expect to survive whatever bullshit, we were born into or we landed in or sometimes that we started. we age early, and then realize we're still facing an indeterminate number of years but now we're run down. when i was in my early twenties a friend of ours then going through her late thirties and early forties started talking to us about regret and we didn't understand, and thought it might just be something we'd understand in time, an age thing, it kind of was, we can see how we might be that kind of sad in a few years. but she didn't expect to get that old either. it's not like we lived extraordinary lives. we just didn't care what happened to them. lands you in some interesting situations that's for sure. someone said, about a very different situation, it made great stories but chaotic living. think that applies there too.