for a long time I'd never really thought about this as a weird thing but I'm now realizing that I've never really looked in a mirror and thought “yep. that's me”
when I look in the mirror I do not feel like the face I see is actually myself
it doesn't feel like it's another person, but my brain also largely refuses to acknowledge that it's me
I don't think it's a dysphoria thing? I don't really feel negative towards it - but I'm not sure if it's just because I don't associate it with myself or if this is *somehow* a result of my brain coping with dysphoria by refusing reality?
it's hard to describe. like, I *know* that it's me, and I am fairly confident that there is nothing wrong with my perception of reality, but my brain still refuses to make the connection that my face is actually *me*
Lilith Ashley Nyx Arson :mk_demon_red:
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2026-10-25 04:46:24 UTC
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