rare on Nostr: haven't really been social. i stopped going to meetups. stopped hanging out. just ...

haven't really been social. i stopped going to meetups. stopped hanging out. just home w/ family. i talk and play with my kid. talk with the wife. talk with my siblings and parents. barely interact with individuals outside of that circle.

in many ways, its nice. in others, like when you're presenting to people... its awkward.

gave a presentation a few weeks ago... first time speaking to a live audience. not a big one. a small one. botched it from jump.

tonight, gave a presentation. botched that too.

right from the start. never introduced myself. just went straight to the demos. the ideas in my head didn't match what i said...

and yeah... being reclusive...

i do appreciate just being. not having to talk. not having to say anything.

maybe being more reclusive is the key.