Broken Scholar is a "little" odd on Nostr: I'm back in that mood once again - in fact, when I feel the most worthless and ...

I'm back in that mood once again - in fact, when I feel the most worthless and unheard (even if that isn't factually truth) I pretty much always arrive at the same conclusion - all my attempts at fostering new relationships for the past decade conclude either in "we're internet friends over text" or "welp, I'm upfront about being shy but that person has one or multiple people that are not, and any significant friendship or romance never materializes"

I'm starting to think I should simply not attempt to "love" anymore. I have a feeling I've been downplaying it myself my entire life and it's created a feedback loop where I myself feel like I deserve absolutely nothing and intentionally close off myself to anybody who might actually care.

Sounds like a drag to be around. I wouldn't want to have anything to do with me either.