Me eager to focus on tenure and worried about what getting pregnant would mean since my new husband still lived a 3hr flight away. Happily did not push back.
But see she was looking at me not my chart. I look young but I was 37 I should have pushed back with my age.
Meditation series convinced me that my regret is grief for a future I thought I would have. But that future never really existed so I’m seeing only one rose colored option not the 100s of less desired possible ones.
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