I was just thinking I was getting to be ok with my family, but as my niblings are reaching adolescence it's like "ok, gear up for round two!"
LOL
I fought for myself & my little brother & little sister. I can do it even better now.
I guess when I say I've always known that one of my niblings was going to someday need me as a safe adult that means I've always known on some level that I was going to become fucking furious with their parents, my siblings.
I've tried so hard to move on from childhood wounds, but then they went & had kids, & now those same things I was starting to forgive & let go are hitting a second generation of children.
The same carelessness & selfishness that hurt me hasn't gone away, unfortunately.