Cum Vampire on Nostr: It's sad to me that over time I share less and less about what's actually going on ...

It's sad to me that over time I share less and less about what's actually going on for me and especially what's hurting me in various forums because I want emotional support but mostly get directions and moral demands about how I should behave and what I should do based on victim blaming and on other people's lives and wants and, like, that's kind of what my pre-transition life was already and I don't want that anymore so I just shut down and share less and don't ask for support and just stay internal and alone which is also what my pre-transition life was already and it feels like "well fuck this is the same. I mean it's the same and I'm still fucking alone without any emotional safety or support but I get to wear dresses so okay whatever it's better I guess."