It appears you are beginning a philosophical journey most began decades ago. Normally that wouldn't be a problem but it also appears you're (intentionally or not) following a line of discourse whose trail was blazed by grifters and conartists.
If you are in good faith, this is not your fault, but you must approach the subject knowing the hostility and malignancy that dominates this subject from those who consider pro-social ("woke") behavior to be a mark of shame.