But this random playlist is the only thing keeping me sane right now.
Being on a shared ward with random sick strangers or waiting 12 hours in a waiting room with random sick strangers is nerve wracking because I have emetophobia and I just can't calm down. I can't really talk with anyone about why I'm so worked up incase it appears crazy on my notes so I am clinging to my noise cancelling headphones like a crutch and as a way to put some distance between me and the rest of the world.
When the sunshine comes I want to atleast step outside somewhere for a small moment of peace. I am drained from being around new people and strangers. I need to find some calm somewhere...
