Not you too! E2EE without the ability to manage your own keys and verify the mechanisms of encryption means that Apple can introduce more ghost keys behind the scenes allowing themselves and others to be included in who can decrypt the information.
Then there is the whole notifications issue where Apple and Google were leaking that which should be local. https://www.reuters.com/technology/cybersecurity/governments-spying-apple-google-users-through-push-notifications-us-senator-2023-12-06/
I don't trust Apple.