Skullena. 💀 (she/ her) on Nostr: I'm so frustrated by work already and it hasn't really started again. I have to work ...

I'm so frustrated by work already and it hasn't really started again. I have to work for another 20 years at least. I don't want anymore that way. I need something else. Something else else, not just a new place.
But how do you do that in your 40s? How do you overcome the fear of starting completely anew and not knowing if it's going to work out?
I live alone, I don't earn a lot. I live pretty rurally, I don't have a car. I'm not super clever. I fear old-age poverty. Though that is very likely to happen anyway.
What the fuck am I even waiting for? How much longer do I want to wait? It's not going to get any easier.