What sucks is having to deal with the distance between what I would like my brother to be—the person I think he could become—and who he actually is.
One of the problems is that in a certain sense I feel like I actually don't have much information or insight into who he is. I feel like he presents a carefully curated version of himself to me.
But there are things I *do* know, & some of them suggest a pretty ugly picture, regardless of the other "good" things.