Broken Scholar is a "little" odd on Nostr: Been having a difficult time the past few days in terms of... not being able to ...

Been having a difficult time the past few days in terms of... not being able to indulge the stuff that makes me happy normally. At least, not without it feeling very forced. I find myself leaning into more of the parts of myself that read like "going through the motions" while trying to fight against it.

Haven't felt compelled to wear diapers and be little, relegating that to simply masturbation and moving on. Having a hard time committing to playing a new game. Feeling like going for a drive for the sake of it just to be somewhere else.

I think moods like this can spiral for me, I've never personally filed myself under "clinically depressed" and when I operate on these "going through the motions" parameters, it feels like I'm failing myself when maybe I should just allow whatever it is to pass.