yeah
i'm talking about an internal psychological struggle
but the whole "you're doing something but it's not perfect" sort of "criticism" from outside your efforts, from other "leftists," is some real bullshit
the only real leftists are leftists actually doing something
people sitting and judging others as inadequate or imperfect or "you're doing that but why aren't you doing this" demands etc is nothing but self-serving ego masturbation. it's fake posers